Lack of Sleep

I am tired to say the least!  I am still up typically once sometimes twice a night nursing little miss Felicity and to be honest for the first 4 months it really was not bad, but the last couple of nights have been brutal, I know, I know you are saying, but she has been sick.  I realize that she needs me more (like every two hours if not less) right now because she is sick, but that is so hard on my body.  Last night was really bad, not only was she up often  but she was hard, really hard to get to go back to sleep.  I can honestly say I was cursing anyone who would hear me in the middle of the night, at 12:30, 3:30 and 6 am about how upset I was that I was so tired, not well rested and had to be up in 45 min because that is when Hannah would be up.  I am sure at one point I even expresses how upset I was with the Lord (because this is all His fault right ;)).  It is funny though that even after all my anger and frustration (literally feeling like I was taken to the end of my rope that the good Lord does give back 10 fold.  Not only did I get to sleep in till almost 8, Thank you very much Hannah!, but after a nice hot cup of coffee I really felt pretty good and much more rested than I thought I would being up so often.  To top it all off I also got an hour long nap this afternoon.  Now I don't typically nap, but after much deliberation whether to work out or sleep, I felt that I owed it to my wonderful husband (who was also up much last night helping me with a crabby baby), to put my sanity first.  This made me a much happier wife, a much happier and capable mother and allowed me to cater to my husband much better than if I had exhausted my boy more by working out.  Simply put I knew I needed to be mentally, physically and emotionally available to Andrew after he got home from work.  I had been putting so much time and energy into other things that our relationship felt like it was put on a back burning the last few days.  It felt good to see Andrew come home and be at ease because the house was at ease.  My husband is a rock star to put up with so much and put forth so much and work full time, sometimes it is easy to take him for granted. I pray that I can continue to put Andrew and our relationship first, because he/it really is what makes our family go round.  

On a side note, I got to take Hannah our for a little Target run tonight, she had a blast running thru target and literally climbing all over the "fun" cart as she calls it.  Felicity is still not her happy old self but it feel like she is getting a bit closer, I still get a bit nervous when illnesses drag on and on, but luckily Andrew is here to assure me that "everything is going to be fine", that is truly his motto.  :)

Thank you dear little ones, and my dearest Andrew for making me so happy,

Love Mom